Studying for Linear Algebra Test

Ok, ladies and gents. So I am completely unmotivated right now. I am currently studying for my linear algebra test. Kind of bored doing it though, no I am bored. Hmmm.... I need something exhilarating to happen to me. Yea...I think I'm go skydiving in a couple of weeks. But what should I do in the mean time? Hmmmm.... studying Japanese and re-watching Death Note is keeping soul connected to this body, but that will only last for so long. I need something to help sew up the roots. Well....I think there is a shooting range near my university. Maybe I can go shoot at some paper targets. Man....I need some ideas. I still got at least two months in this pathetic school. Anyway, just another day in the life of ...me (sigh) .

Ok, Ladies and Gents. It's been almost a month now since the last post. Has there been a significant change in my life since then, hmmmmm? Yes, I guess. Since my education is the most important thing to me right now, I will start with everything related to it. So I have applied to eight internship thus far, and I will still apply to more for this summer I have been procrastinating a lot this past month, but I will explain why later. Other than internships, I have a research job on my campus, but I have not been doing much in it. I was given a seventy-five page paper to read, and I did, about a video they are trying to develop enlightening gamers of the history of George Latimer and his son. George Latimer was a slave who escaped to freedom when he reached to Boston, I think. So far the only thing I assisted on was making the game appealing to the modern day gamer, but I want to do more than that. I want to learn how to do something, but I have not got any word yet, and I do not want to nag them. The next thing is my Japanese class....smh...sigh. Remember in my last post I said the young African Americans are not pushing themselves to the limit, but actually below average is fine with them? Well, IT IS GETTING ON MY F'N NERVES!!!! Let me tell how slow my class is at Norfolk State University by using lessons in the Japanese learning textbook for comparison. The textbook has twelve lessons in total. In Japan, my sensei (teacher) went from lesson one to lesson five for Japanese 101. I come back to NSU and take Japanese 101-2, the second level, and the second level starts at Lesson 4!! I asked the teacher "why are you going so slow?" She responds "well, the students here are not as motivated as students elsewhere. I have to make sure that they pass." WTF!!! Not only that, but I found out she also teaches at another university not far from my school and in their Japanese 101, she teaches from Lesson 1 - Lesson 6!!!! Oh My F'n Goodness. The classes I attend at the school in Japan were all challenging, so do you know how depressed I was when I heard that shit. The only thing that kept me alive was this girl I liked in Japan that I knew was coming to America to study. I thought I could build a relationship with her since we "dated" (<----it complicated), however, she shut me down about three weeks ago, and that "tipped the glass over." I was so depressed that I felt I could not move for half a day. I wanted to cry because I feel I am not getting the education I want, I felt lonely, I feel utterly unsatisfied. What do you do if you have a full scholarship, but your parents do not have money for you to transfer to better university? What do you do when you are lonely and not interested in any woman....on your campus...in your home state....not even in America? What do you do when you are so unsatisfied that you are far past the point where you begin to think "what is the point of life?" I am not the type of person to commit suicide if anyone is thinking that. Dying is too easy, and it is not a challenge at all and you know how much I love a challenge. Remember, it is always harder to live than to not. Sigh. Well, just another day in the life of me (no smiley face this time).

Ok, Ladies and Gents. Its literally two weeks since I have been at NSU...smh. Like I said before... I wish I was back in Japan. I do not want to sound like I am complaining a lot so I will say this: "Count your blessing," because other people are in a worse situation. I really cannot say that I am in a "bad" situation. Cool Friends. Full Scholarship. Internship in both 2008 and 2009. I mean nothing is wrong in those situations. The ONLY thing I really have a problem with this school is the computer science education and how low the standards are. I am so bored with these professors because they are used to the African-American students not pushing themselves to the limit, not even trying to be average, but below it. smh. Shouganai (that's life). Anyway, currently I am applying to internships for summer 2010. I am applying to like twelve of them. Hopefully I get one again, God Blessing. The internships I have applied, especially the last one smh, was challenging. THAT IS WHAT I LOVE.....THE CHALLENGE, PUSHING MYSELF TO BEST I CAN BE. I may hate the challenge during the process, but the taste of sweet victory, the feel of a great accomplishment always make it worth it. Time to go watch some anime, and finish this internship application. Just another day in the life of ...me :)

Hello Ladies and Gents. I know I know....i havent blogged in a long time, and you have told me that. So I was just invited to the new Google Wave so I am updating now since the Wave has features that deals with Blogger. Anyway, last time I signed in I was in Japan. Now I am back in America. A lot has happened since the last time I wrote. So I will give you a list of major happenings:

• Moved out my host family's apartment because of the lack of communication which created an unwanted and "not welcomed here" atmosphere. So I packed my things and literally left there place without a word. One thing I should note, Japanese people are evasive and that was the beginning of my problems.
• I took the second test of Eastern Religion class and I GOT A FREAKIN A!!!! I am happy because i failed the first with a 69 which was one of the top 3 test grade in the class smh. This time I think i was number one. Remember kids: "fool me once, shame on you. fool me twice, shame on me." I passed the third test as well with an A as well, that was one of my hardest class, if not the hardest.
• HALLOWEEN!!!! Yo, the Japanese cats I was hanging with at LCJ took it to the extreme with their costumes. We had a lot of fun at our schools halloween party. Apparently the previous year's Halloween was wack, but our int'l group for Fall '09 made it worth while for the Japanese cats.
• So there was this lady, nicknamed "kaasan" which means mother in Japanese. She was given that nicknamed because people though she looked older for her age. Well, that same lady.....I liked a lot. smh. Kaasan ha samishii you da yo! <--- That is Japanese for (i think) " i miss kaasan" with an affirmative stance. She is coming to study abroad in America, so maybe I can meet up with her :)
• I almost forgot about Thanksgiving because Japanese people do not celebrate it of course. So we decided to go to a Portuguese restaurant which was awesome lol. You will see why when I upload the pictures. It was me, Alex, Ryu, George, Tinu, Ashley, Jency, Marx, Mari, Angelina, Gerry, Misaki, Maasa, some russian guy lmfao, and I think that is it. It was like a buffet for a reasonable price especially since food in Tokyo is crazy expensive smh. But we definitely enjoyed ourselves ;)
• Finished my finals...I had a 3.88, almost had that 4.0 F*CK!!!! Remembering it makes me mad. Anyway. I had three A's and one A minus. Oh well sh*t happens.
• I stayed an extra week and did things that I wanted to do before I left like spend time with friends and the girl I liked :*( I visited Kamakura which is a beautiful place to see around November to December in Japan because around that time it is like fall in America. The leaves are gorgeous. Sugoii desu ne (amazing isnt it?)
• I went to Ito which is in the mountains!!! It was f'n awesome. Like, who do you know that lives in the mountains?! Well my friend had a little party at her house and it was real good. The view is really beautiful too. I miss Japan.
• I returned to the U.S. and dreaded being away from Japan and the friends I made there. I played games most of the time. Man...let me tell you about New Year's....um actually...maybe not because it is probably too explicit.....well I can say some things. :) lol. So had a little get together/ slash party. We had music going, had drinks ( a lot), dark lighting... and the rest is history :) THAT IS HOW YOU START A NEW YEAR!
• Now I am at school, ole Negro State University (the name is actually Norfolk State University) but this place gets on my nerves, but shogonai ne (thats life).

Like I said I am updating my blog because Caramina sent me an invite which I am totally grateful for. Just another day in the life of me :)

Ok, ladies and gents. So I had a very fun weekend....but freakin tiring. NEMUII To TSUKARETA!

Translation, sleepy and tired. Friday night, 10/9/2009, we went to the Alps as usual. the Alps is a bar/restaurant/chill spot type of thing. The bad thing is that there is a lot of smoking which gets on my nerves! Every time we go there we spend close to 300 hundred bucks! Never again. Lets see......Saturday I went to Ueno, Japan thinking that I am going to meet a friend there, but it supposed to be on sunday so I felt stupid when I called her and asked her "where you at?" lol. So I decided to look around and saw these girls staring at me, but tryin to be inconspicuous about it. They worked at a Very small jewelry store so I decided to walk in. They were very cute, we talked a little....well as much as we could since there is a language barrier, but my Japanese is getting a little better every week so I could convey some of my thoughts to her. I bought something for my friend in the U.S. Anyway, Sunday night I met with my friend in Ueno and instead of taking me on a tour, she surprised me and took me to another city called Odaiba. It was freaking beautiful! There is a smaller version of the Statue of Liberty residing on the coast of the waters. There is also a amazing view of Rainbow Bridge. Not only that, we went to a restaurant called La Boheme where there was an even better view of the bridge, and if you notice Tokyo Tower is right behind it. Romantic, kind of. Anyway, I did a lot of things this weekend, but I am tsukareta right now. this is just another day in the life of me :)

Ok, ladies and gents. So my Eastern Religion class was suppose to get our test back today, but apparently most of the Japanese students grades are very low so the teacher wants to boost their grade up by allowing them to turn in homework that was passed due. However, she will not return or reveal anyone's grades until next week!!! I was severely pissed, well.....not really, just disappointed. I really studied my ass off for it and I want to see the fruits of my labor. She said there were three A's, but I do not know if I was one of them. Life goes on. Anyway, I just got an email confirming that I am receiving a check to support myself in Tokyo!!! This "organization" that is funding me is freaking AWESOME, without this "organization" i do not know what i would have done, probably take a loan and work it off. But once i get this check, its over, Tokyo is going down!!! Well, its just another day in the life of me :)

Ok, ladies and gentlemen. What should I talk about.....well last friday 10/2, I took an Eastern Religion test. There was only one thing on the test that I had no idea about. The question asked to explain the Four Yugas. Seriously, in my head I said "What the F!!! is a Yuga?!!!" I skipped it and went on ahead and finished the rest of the test. Then I came back to the question I literally spent like 30 minutes trying to figure out what it was. Yuga is related to Hindu time which was covered in like the very first week of school back in September 1st or something!!!! I was highly pissed! But life goes on and I tried my hardest, and God bless, I believe that I passed it with at least a B, hopefully. Anyway, back to my social life. So I have been to the club EVERY SINGLE WEEKEND I have been here smh. I spent alot of money smh. The clubs are expensive smfh. This past weekend I didnt want to go, but the girls insisted smh. I'm a sucker for women s...m....h. But I had fun with them so I guess it was worth it. The only thing I dont like is all the smoking in this city, especially a place as confined as clubs. My whole body, including my hair!, smells like cigarettes after I leave and it takes a whole day before it can air out. It still smells like smoke but not as poignant. Most definitely, one good thing came from going to the club, which was meeting a bodygaurd who is helping me find a teaching job!!! So yes, again, it was freaking worth it cuz I NEED MONEY!!!!!!!!! Another day in the life of me :)